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How Would I Know

12/24/06 | by steveg [mail] | Categories: Buddhism

During some repetitous task at the seasonal job I got (and isn't every task in a warehouse repetitious for the temporary help), I was trying to keep sane by doing some informal Buddhist practice. Admittedly, all my practice has been informal of late, ie not sitting cross-leggged, breathing and wish all beings a better existence. The effects are noticeable as I beep more and drop f-bombs during my daily commute. However, I do regret my vehicular temper tantrums, try to purify the effects, and still think on basic principles during stolen moments now and again.

So sitting at computer terminal printing out shipping labels and packing slips (over and over and over again), was thinking about why this seemed so miserable. I found my thoughts going to what else I could be doing that would be more meanful to me (or selfish for me), how I was going to get all those errands run after work if I stayed for more overtime, wondered if I'll be too tired to write later, wishing I could have a good cup of coffee and convesation at a cafe, etc.

The common thread was that I was not at that desk, in a warehouse, in Glenville, poking in numbers on a computer printing out packaging documents. My body was there, but I wasn't.
So what about being present, lessee if that helps. Nope, the mind wandered to analyzing if I was purely present, in a full awareness of what in front of me, what would that be like?

These questions came up(and I have no idea the answer:

  1. How was this meaningful, without the context of the past and it memory for reference?
  2. Any time I have been in the "zone," I don't remember any details of it. How would I know I was present, if I have no memory of it except for a sudden loss of time?

If any of you have a clue, leave me a comment.



Comment from: milesB [Visitor] Email
milesBThis doesn't answer anything, but I do recall this: before enlightenment, chop wood and carry water. After enlightenment, chop wood and carry water.
12/25/06 @ 00:35
Comment from: Adam Harvey [Visitor] Email
Adam HarveyIt sounds like we traded our contentment balances.

I don't have any wisdom to offer, but maybe my favorite passage from the Tao does.

12/28/06 @ 15:13